这到底是什么感觉?

控制不了情绪.

现在的我，

超伤心,

超难过，

在也不是自己了。

付出那么多但用错的方式，

后悔了,

太迟了，

开心了，

明白了。

明白在这世界里，

现实是残酷的，

没有人是站在你那一边的,

除非你给他什么好处，

这一回，

我败给了自己。
Lemonsick @5:30 AM
明知道会这样,

明明都ok的.

但为什么现在的我，

会落到这种地步?

心情有点混乱,

不知该怎么面对现实.

开始要逃跑了,

但也不能每次都逃避现实.

我到底该怎么做?

应该继续当一个让大家快乐的小丑吗?

还是应该反醒一下自己的所作所为?

为什么现在的我那么伤心?

为什么??

我开始恨我自己了。
Lemonsick @1:41 AM
sat was é final for winter league.. haha, we get in 3rd place.. =\ not bad la.. after the league went to ben's hse.. his 21st b'dae party.. 1 word to describe the party, GREAT! haha.. first time i got kinda drunk.. and the itch wun go away.. until now i'm still scrathing.. Zzz..

IVP is coming.. everyone is working very hard..

FIGHTING! =D
Lemonsick @2:03 AM
got my hair cut.. haha.. >.<

ytd went to sentosa with alvin, ming yao, jak, gh and shuhui.. haha it was fun for me la.. but bored to gh and sh i guessed.. hahaha =x..

challenge frisbee with commandos.. haha, final score 5 - 2, we won..
running on the beach is really diff from running on field/pitch.. omg..

took skyride and luge WEEe~ very fun.. haha especially with siao kias like them.. keep shouting..

dun think i will try organize outings anymore.. it sux.. sms wun reply, bla bla bla.. FYU!
Lemonsick @7:05 PM
yesterday went to eat prata with shuhui and aaron.. den was waiting for jak.. but den he very slow.. so i went to aaron's hse and shu hui went home.. play Xbox360 for till 11+pm den go over alvin hse to see them play mahjong.. bored.. haha..

after awhile, went back to aaron hse to play xbox360 again..
went back ard 3am and eat xiao wan mian alone.. =(

cant slp.. wake up at 10+ and ate mac breakfast with my relatives + my family..
sian.. bored.. rot..

alvin drove car and pick me up at ard 840pm, woot.. finally he drive us out.. haha..
watched 300.. not bad la.. haha.. 8/10 lo..

after that went to prata shop and eat prata again.. den went to west coast to have some fun? hahahha.. pics..


the adventurers? LOL!


Further view..


Closer View.. =D


On your mark?


=D

went home after visiting the ponds.. very creepy.. =X ~_~
hahaha, alvin pro driver.. although he nv reach 110km/hr but he change lane like nobody business.. nb! LOL..
Lemonsick @2:31 AM
gals who u wan them to be at ur side u make them ur best friends..
gals who u dun care abt, as in u dun wan them to be ur side, u make them ur girlfriend..

is this true? =\

if this is true i might become a monk! omg.. =X
Lemonsick @5:19 PM
thurs to sat work at pc show.. the pay quite low.. and the basic pay was $40/day.. sell xbox($699 or $560) we earn $3, xbox games and $19.90 mouse for $0.50, the rest is $1.. i'm not very good at asking people to buy.. lol.. think i'm always the lesser 1.. =x

thurs went to mos after work, with friends.. it was fun la, but omg the air there is like will kena lung cancer anytime.. =\ was crowded la coz of the event, i forgot wat event was that but anyway, its free.. =D

while we were standing there waiting for dunno wat, a group of FHM models came in and shoot pics and video beside us, so we walk near them to have a closer look, den suddenly 1 of them came to us and omg? she was from disc knight(a frisbee club), haha.. cool..

recently we've got addicted to enaq's prata.. the prata price is reasonable unlike those shops at town 1, so freaking expensive.. and afterall, the prata is so nice! i'll give 10/10 =D.. u guys shld try it.. haha..

sunday league we've lost the games.. =( but our team spirit is good.. we dun give up easily.. haha.. 13 - 8..

ytd went to zouk.. it was so crowded although its not free.. $18/$25 for just the entrance.. $18 u can only go to zouk.. $25 u can enter phuture and vel something and zouk.. fun also la.. but think wun keep going unless i wan to get lung cancer eagerly.. haha..

oh ya, got myself a bass guitar.. $385 for the guitar itself, and $185 for the AMP.. but total i only pay $520 coz overall the price is over budget, so the shop owner discount for me.. it was Squire J bass.. hmm dunno whether the J stands for jazz anot.. but i like it.. =D

i'm craving for pratas.. anyone?

thats all for today.. =)
Lemonsick @5:02 PM
Been working at yun nan yuan since last thurs the pay was good.. $12/hr O.O
haha, and the job is quite simple, hmm.. haha..
but den from sunday onwards the pay become $10/hr.. why~ ?

haha, my aunt help me to get in to this job, and ohh, the people down there are soo nice.. especially missy oh? haha.. =X dun misunderstand~ missy got bf already.. haha.. =X

sat went to ms chua hse.. got me, alvin, ming yao, aaron, jakin, pei ching, shu hui, jerry, poh ying, mavia and dexiang came late, chea boon, jasmine, huey yuan, hwee ting and haha, cannot remember liao la..
took some pics but the pics not with me.. =\
hmm nothing to say abt wat we did there.. just eat sakae sushi and KFC lo.. play with her kids and watch movie.. quite boring ah.. =x

after that we went to kbox, we got 13 of us but they only charge us with 10 person price.. coz they nv do their job properly.. XD whaha.. sing till 3+am lo.. reach home only lie down flat~

sunday frisbee league,
our team vs some dunno wat name team.. we won again.. i was late for the first 2 points.. =( but doesnt matter la.. chi dao hao guo mei dao.. haha.. this round i was kinda hyper but still got not enough stamina.. =( haha.. the final score 14 - 10<.. cant remember well.. but nvm la.. a was a Good game.. =D

next week is the last league and week after next is the final liao.. our team is 2nd in the league.. we lost 2 rounds only.. haha.. so took bevan car home and watch some animes while resting.. meet sh, alvin, jerry, aaron, gh, hy, jak and jeremy to enaq.. the 24hrs prata shop, vari cheap and vari nice.. >.< /b but wait vari long for the food..

went to alvin hse to play mahjong and watch epic movie.. omg the show was very bad.. but some most of the parts r very funny.. dunno how to say.. lol.. i give 2/5 nia.. went home ard 5am+

today woke up 10am.. meet missy at OCBC bank.. went to dragon gate with her.. on the way there, we meet up with 2 of her friends, 1 of them is from china and she told missy that i look damn young.. D= 16 - 18 like that.. PWN! haha.. nvm nvm, she's not the first one too.. =x the other 1 is our working aunty.. haha.. friend i mean.. we 4 went to dragon gate and meet up with the rest.. the food is nice la.. but i eat abit nia full liao.. haha.. =\ me and missy sharing food here and there lo.. coz if order too much later no people eat, so we 2 share half half here, half half there.. call robin say i might not be going to training coz missy drag me along to vivo..

reach vivo and the guy and gal split.. shop with the guys is damn bored.. this bunch of guys dunno wat they thinking lo.. happy happy split here, happy happy split there.. and see stuff that r so boring~ DVD, TV.. and talk among themselves.. 1 word to describe them.. bananaS.. =D

while walking with them i saw ben.. so i ran to him and call him la.. then he tell me better go frisbee HAHA! =X den he go eat with gf first.. later then meet me.. so i walk back and meet up with bananas but ... all disappear.. end up found them at giant looking at DVD and TV.. =.-'

after awhile meet up with the gals.. den i follow them to mark and spencer..
thanx to missy, she bought me milk chocolate cookies.. taste nice.. =)after awhile, missy gotta go, so i send her off to MRT, den meet up with ben..

ultimate! today's training is good.. garrick brought his shorts and shirt for me.. thanx to him.. haha.. today everyone spirit is damn good.. very hyper..
for those who still doesnt know how an Ultimate is play,

go to this webby:

Click Here

follow the steps below..


that's Ultimate.. =)
Lemonsick @2:55 AM
as usual, we took dunno how many freaking hrs to travel to grandma hse.. lucky the flood was better.. hmm, let the pics talk for me ba.. =D


entrance to my grandma hse..


yawnz~ ~_~' next team~!!


Reunion dinner~ =D~


Front view lol..


took the whole afternoon learning how to ride this bike.. =X

hmm, wanted to take the house from a different angle, so walk road infront of the hse and *CRACK* omg?

sorry~ >.<


lots of snails.. =D


Gong Xi Fa Cai, *eating orange*






O.O Commando Mosquito..


a closer look. xD


Kitchen..

Z.Z took some pic during the trip from my grandma hse to grandmother hse.. hmm, wats the different? haha.. grandma is dad side, grandmother is mom's side.. =X

Kluang to Muar,











Front Yard


Back Yard haha =x


a closer look.. O.o?


on da way home.. omg, jam.. ~xD

haha, sry for the ultra late post, =X
still need to improve my camera skill.. =\
Lemonsick @3:23 AM