for no reasons, this few days i felt very emotional..
after looking at mel's nick(Maybe its time to quit le ba), i talk to him..
i told him that i wanted to quit dota too, but i got my own reason for carry on..
i told him that gaming is a waste of time, 1 match 1hr+, 2matches 2hr+.. we spent 1/3 of our day on slping, which is consider alot.. if we add games into our life, that would be ½ of our day gone just like that.. i wanna quit coz there is too much for me to do.. frisbee, work, study and i wanna spend more time with her.. wish she could really give me a chance to prove myself..

i dunno whether i'm right or wat, but the reason for me to carry on is, we promised each other that we will win WCG nyp together as a team.. coz of this promise we made, i give up on lots of thing.. my temper went out of control sometimes.. coz of this i've been struggling.. i even lost my chances of getting someone heart before.. why must i struggle? we dun have to struggle, but coz we made a promise among ourselves.. wat we told ourselves? we treat capl as a compy to gain experience, we din expect to get into top 8, now we're in premier, the path gets rockier this time, it wun be so as smooth again.. can we give up now? how can we give up half way?

i told frisbee people that i gotta work for my mom, thats y i cant go for training.. after explaining so much for myself they still dun understand.. or i should say dun believe.. finally i can go back for training.. today florence say i also sheng xiao, always dun wan to go training.. i skip monday training is coa i tuesday gotta hand in report which i haven started.. after explaining so much for myself, i'm still a "always dun wanna go for training due to some lol reasons" guy..

i kept quiet after capl compy, u guys expect me to say out our mistake.. but after i think of the consequences, i would rather keep quiet.. so wat if i said out our mistakes? will u guys agree with me? will u guys listen? will u guys believe me? wats the point of saying trustworthy? u guys dun even trust each other.. during frisbee during dota and even during real life situation.. wat's trustworthy to u guys? something which u guys just put it on ur mouth so that people can listen? dun say it, show it..

life's getting tougher and tougher each day.. anyway, its not that every friday i wanted to cancel the meeting, i hope u guys can understand..
Lemonsick @9:30 PM